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I know people won't read this but I need to vent and what a better place than here. I just want to go back to the fun times and not the difficult times. To go back to Disneyland a month ago with my brother in law and sister, the best time of my life. I want to forget all the times I was hit by them. It was the worst time, I was just doing stupid childish things. Please just let me forget. I don't regret cutting. Deeper and deeper I got and the addiction would just get worse, I relied on it. But my brother in law pulled me out of it and is helping overcome everything. I feel a little better about myself. I just need to get the hell out of here and disappear. I'm going to join the Army and forget everything i want to but of course i won't forget the people that have helped me the most. I love them deeply and don't ever want to loose them.